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Dear Billy
It was risky, hanging around the hospital like this when pretty much all of Hawkins was still convinced he was to blame for all of this, but Eddie felt like he owed it to Max to visit. It was rough seeing her like that. And he couldn't help the gnawing guilt that if any of them should have lost to this thing it was him. Each of them meant so much to so many people, and here he was, bruised and bandaged, but alive. And the only person who might have cared to know it had to think he was dead. It didn't seem fair.
He ducked outside for a smoke, keeping his head down, but people were too preoccupied with the mess that had opened up under them to be worried about hunting the Freak. As far as they were concerned the Munson boy was dead, and good riddance.
Trying to get the damn smoke to light, Eddie grew still, eyes suddenly catching a familiar set of piercing blue ones, and seeing that moment of recognition in them he paled. He abruptly turned tail, walking aimlessly around the side of the building and praying silently he'd only imagined that look of recognition.

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He made his way through the halls, hands shoved in his pockets and trying not to make eye contact with anyone. In and out. His chest clenched a little at the gaggle of doctors outside of her room, and fucking officer Callahan.
Silently as he could Eddie closed himself in Max's room, blinking in surprise when he turned and found it more occupied than he'd been counting on.
"...Hargove?" Was it really him? Eddie anxiously eyed the door, weighing his options.
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He almost misses the door opening and closing - the droning gets louder and quiet again quickly. Eyes shift to look over his shoulder, and then back to Max. Back to Eddie. Like he's nervous. "No," comes the quiet answer, though his voice sounds strained. "It's Billy." Hargrove isn't awake right now and Billy doesn't want him to be. Not yet.
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HargoveBilly.His head tilted, taking in the state of him with a creased brow.
"You, um...you here to see Max?" he asked, starting with an easier question, tone casual as he rocked on his heels and gesturing to the bed. Easier than 'Aren't you dead?' at least.
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"A lady found me. Led me here and she mentioned Max. I... I don't know how long we were gone, but-" Billy looks at Eddie, like he's studying the other teen for some reason. "How long... has she been like this? Did N- one of her parents do this?" It would be more believable than thinking the mind flayer did it.
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"A few days now," he answers, toing at the floor. He tries to remember everything he's been filled in on. Billy knew. Knew at least part of what Hawkins really was. Right? He shakes his head quickly, brow furrowing as he frowns. "Nah, nothing like...mm- nothing like that. It was, um..." He shuts his eyes against intruding memories of Chrissy...Patrick, able to imagine with graphic detail what had happened to Max.
"It's was, uh- we've been calling him Vecna," he admits, an anxious look on his face. It still feels wrong to admit any of this to someone outside of the party, sure he won't be believed.
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"Not the thing from the Mall then." But who was Vecna? Was it related to that thing that tried to kill Billy? God he should be dead. After ten months in that hell hole, he almost wanted to be dead. Fuck.
He swallows hard, watching Max for a long while, then his eyes slide to Eddie. "...Why are you here? She's a loser, not a freak like you," but even as he calls his stepsister that, there's not much attitude and bite in it.
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Hearing the familiar taunt almost makes his lips curl fondly, and Eddie breaths a laugh through his nose, shrugging a shoulder. "Mm, never could lure her over to full freak," he agrees, "But uh...you missed a lot. Kid sister stepped up to try and stop the big bad..."
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He thinks of the last night he saw Max, one of the many faces gaping at him in the neon brightness of the mall. "We should be where she is. Or dead. Should be dead after everything." Which was true. It had to be some sort of miracle or bullshit or whatever that Billy was even here and not actually six feet under like his headstone would suggest. Hargrove was the one that had a difficult time coping with the step-family. Not Billy.
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He puts a hand to his chest in mock offense, like he's been struck by an arrow. But the play acting can only soften the mood so long, and the hand drops along with his gaze.
"Probably, man," he agrees, stepping closer to Max's bed with a frown. "...Doctor's say she might wake up still. Any day now..."
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"Doctors are liars." He reaches out and puts a bloody, grimy hand on top of Max's. "We- I should be dead." He had to be clear because it doesn't seem like Eddie really understood that the blond was referring to himself. "You didn't say why you were here." At least being her step-brother, Billy had a reason to be here.
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Eddie watches the movement like he's afraid Billy might hurt her for a moment.
"...Red helped save me. Her and all her friends and Harrison. The whole mess of them. Figured I uh....owed her a visit, you know?"
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"It's...it's a blur," he finally manages to say, glancing at Eddie, and then quickly away again. It's only then that he realizes that his hands are shaking. He thinks of the mall. The flashes of fireworks and that girl touching his face. Saying his mother was pretty.
Billy would never say out loud how much he misses his mother.
"...One of her friends saved me. It wasn't enough." And it would never be now, since El and creature had torn a rift in his head, in his personalities. "Thought I saw you outside but..." but he had to see Max first, for himself.
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But then- they're interrupted as voices outside grow closer, and hearing a hand on the doorknob- Eddie moves abruptly. Eyes wide, he grabs Billy almost as an after thought, knowing either of them getting caught in here was bad news. His fist caught in Billy's jacket, dragging him (practically hauling him. as he almost seemed to go dead weight) into the bathroom without warning.
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That's all he got out when Eddie's moving. Moving too quick for Billy to really keep up with what's happening. One moment he's at Max's bedside with a hand on hers, the next Eddie's dragging him away. He thrashes in the hold but he doesn't have the strength to fight his way out. The jacket he had managed to snag in the lab is closed and he can't get out.
He knows it's coming. There's nothing he can do to fight the pull (well, almost a yank) that makes him dead weight for the other to pull. It's when the door closes behind them that the fight really comes out and he aims a terribly aimed punch at Munson. "Let me go! Let me fucking go, dick!" It's all anger and teeth, thrashing in Eddie's grip at the jacket.
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"Do you want them to catch us??" he hisses, struggling to try and contain Hargrove's rage.
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He hears the footsteps on the other side of the door and tenses. Looks at Billy. The rage is still there but he shakes his head hard. No, no he doesn't want them to catch them in here. He doesn't want the nurses to haul him back into the darkness. The hands clench a little harder but he's breathing through his nose hard in the effort to keep quiet.
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"We're good, man-" he encourages in a hushed voice, testing Billy's grip on him to see if he can step back.
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"Don't let them take us, Munson-" he whispers out urgently and looks ready to bolt when he hears the footsteps again outside of the bathroom. Those hands had almost let go but then they grip hard once more, like claws digging into the fabric. "I can't go back, I can't do it all again, that fucking hellhole in this godforsaken shitstain of a town-"
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"No ones going anywhere," he swears, "Just-- shut up for a minute-" he urges, lifting a finger to his lips pleadingly. He pulls against the clawing grip to press his back against the bathroom door. It wouldn't do much more than stall if someone tries to get in, but it's the best Eddie can do to physically demonstrate .
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He can hear her heels clicking around on the floor as she checks on Max. Hargrove's back slides against the wall until he's on the floor, looking like a gaunt shadow of himself. It's not safe yet, they can't switch. But he can stare Eddie down from this spot.
More heel clicking around the room before it goes past the bathroom door, the room door squeaks open, and shuts once more. It's quiet. "Can we leave this room now? And don't fucking touch us again."
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He waits a beat after Hargrove's question before he cautiously peers out of the door, silent a moment or two before he draws his head back in and nods, shoulders finally releasing some of that tension.
"Yeah. Yeah we can leave-" he allows, pushing open the door and waving a hand for Billy to go on. "...you keep saying 'we'," he notes finally, frowning after him. 'We.' 'Us.' But not Eddie and Billy.
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"And? I know my pronouns, Munson. They give out education in California, in case you were wondering." The two of them in the same head were slipping up, though it wasn't like either side had made some sort of pact to keep the split under wraps.
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He's slower to exit the bathroom, patting his pockets down and pulling out a cigarette, but after a glance towards Max he sticks it behind his ear for later. He'll have to find a slightly less destructive way to rid himself of that holding on by a string anxious energy.
"...I should get outta here," he mutters.
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He frowns at the words and looks away. "You said... something. Makes me think I am supposed to be dead. What's the fucking date anyways?" How long had he been gone? "The mall was the last thing before they took us."
Before they took us.
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"That was like...I dunno- shit... a year ago, man," Eddie answers, head tilting in question. He does not need more god damn mysteries to solve. "Kid and her mom moved into the trailer park. Your dad's out of the picture. I dunno, but... It's the end of March. You were...they buried you." Or...buried a box at least.
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